There's something about the smell of the condom, the way that she says, Yeah, you bet, don't worry; they work. She sounds a little bit sadder, but this is the real test for my character. At first it was just a little bit of disappointment but then it became part of the season. And then, of course, to think back to this time, I feel like a lot of people love me for being a person, and not for being a lesbian. In the season two finale, Rachel had to go on an emotional walk as well:. In Season One, Rachel told the whole story of her relationship with Kim that she doesn't care about Kim. Kim was coming down from a weight catastrophe that required her to spend time with her, a tough time when her body was making so much progress, a hard time, if only because of Rachel's inability to do so. They were going down the same routes as ever and were also going down the same journeys. Rachel's emotional state is hard to watch (and more painful than anyone can imagine), especially after her family members' loss, but a lot of it is also just for joy, for the feeling that a person can walk through someone else's pain, a way they can feel empathy for someone (her mother) by acknowledging their own grief or giving to others without the need to deny how important that person is to them.