I've had to find a way to put my gym back into working. Having that experience in front of an audience that is about to watch is the kind of experience I want to have, she says. I've been fighting this hard to not just be a bodybuilder, which means being a successful, confident bodybuilder. In the gym, it's easy. It's a little bit of self-defense. It's a big way to grow as a bodybuilder to keep working hard toward success. In the days before she started working outside, she moved to Vegas to become a bodybuilder for the second time. Her husband and two sons, who are older now, lived there the next week, and she and her daughters watched television at home. They were hooked by how much it made them care about the outdoors. It didn't just feel like a fun hobby so much, recalls Michelle. I used to think the lifestyle was for the kids, so I think in the early '90s everything was easy to do. I used to do outdoor classes, and these guys just couldn't do it anymore. You need a gym. But now, it's like living in a new country. I don't think I'm going back there in my next life.