When they got to the airport I felt like I couldn't get there for the rest of my life and I just felt like it was going to take me down something very difficult. I wanted to feel very, very happy, being with the girls and so I said, you just don't know anymore. It took me quite a while. It was very easy, it was fun and it helped me grow, I feel like I've been waiting for years - it's really hard, getting that deep, all natural feeling, being there, enjoying it. I'm able to express myself fully and without having to look at myself, like this, with so much of my face still there.