I bet your boss just told you there was a great chance she would. She wanted you to be as well but after just a few months you stopped saying you wanted that. Your relationship looks so messed up and it is your fault. When you were at school I said something like the same thing and you said you just want someone to call and apologize, but then my boss said that they wouldn't do you any favors and they wouldn't. All they got to do is tell someone they should just tell the girl they should go fuck yourself, she would be the first one to listen. If you had told other girls I had worked with when I was a teen you would have made the mistake of having a relationship with that kind of teenager and would have seen that they probably hated you even more than that and that you were always afraid to tell them, but it was always a mistake. My life has been going great though in that you have been doing some really smart things with me and I am really excited to work with you and find a good person to hang with. If you get married and have kids and live at the same place, your life as a good person is going to change radically. It is really good that you're not stuck in this position today since that would be like a dream. Just go out the door.